I woke up to an unknown slight nudging pain somewhere.
Not my physical pain.It would be much easier if it is.

The weather aint good.Not good enough.
But I still have to scramble down town to return the books before I may have no time to do so.
And yes,alone.Friday.I couldnt find a reason to smile to the crowds.
But well alone I shall be.
It doesnt daunt me like lizards can do.

This house is all quiet again.
Only me,98.7fm and the kids shouting below.(& Stinky & Stinko!The 2 tortises that I have to clean their poo!)
They are playing.
Only to the kids,the tomorrows ahead are endless.

My bro decided to leave the house for another 3 days of partying at M'sia.
My parents have to work,which I hate them to be.
They shouldnt be much longer.I should be able to make them stop working.
Gimme some time.I will fully take the load over.
I will,right?
It is already written in the stars.
=)


I hope it stop raining.
I really dun fancy rain until I sleep.
But that would mean I would wake up to the wet floors and fields to work.

When will my cough stop?
It is not cough.Just a few sudden urge to cough out to catch my breathe.
Blah.
I felt like an old and abandoned cat suddenly.
Blinking my lashes(C8ts have lashes,right?) to fight the blurred vision.
I dont fluttered my lash,so I only blink.


I slept very late these nights.
I couldnt fall myself to Lalala Land.
My body was tired but not my mind.

I couldnt woke early.
My mind is somewhat awake at its usual timing but my body is screaming for more rest.

I am not much of a pemmist these days.
I will never declined to be one.
Never.
My will is as strong as...granite.-_-

But there is this...unexplained 'thing' that gnaws.
(Or I refused to explain for it and pretend I didnt know better)


And now I am afraid of night falls.

It seems all my life I am always afaird of something or somethings.
But I never want to tell,never show.

What good would it do me to tell the world how vulnerable I am.
I,myself would have blah it off.
I wouldnt accept this.

If my lord is to go the war and meant to leave me alone.
What good would it be if I were to be alone.
I would join.

But...I am always waiting..waiting for someone to protect me,who can and who will always protect me.
We will never fall behind times,will never fall apart.

Who am I lying?

I dun live there.

This age no longer deals with the 'till death do us part'.
That is nothing but absolute craps...now.

All the songs you hear are just beautifying one's loss,one's regret.
There are not real.
Life doesnt stop there.
You wont sit there feeling sorry forever.

"You will always be the one that I love?"
They should just sing "There will always be another one that I love"

What?This is true.

Keane's song just calm in time to calm me down.

That's it.If I have the money,I would buy his album.
Maybe.